Being Real :)

I can only be who I am
I can't be the girl you want me to be
and I'm not gonna change
I'd rather you like me for me
than changing myself to be something
you would want
it's not worth wasting the time
not being myself
I'm happiest with how I am
and I'd be more miserable being
someone else than being with you.

SO TRUE!

sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out , but to see who cares enough to break them down ♥

Crazy!

This week is crazy! i'm talking in circles all the time and getting really pumped for sections on saturday! idk what i'm gonna do the next two days but this adrenaline excitement energy is causeing major crashes too plus on top of frustration with things this week i'm either hysterical or like super confuzed...
I probably have some nerves going from speech too becuase my introduction speech is due friday and i still have no clue what i'm gonna talk about:P ahhh crazy crazy week! <3

iPod Notes

in the time it takes you to learn what
true love is, someone will have already
fallin for you :)

does certain music make you hold you breath beuase it just makes you want to jump up and dance or it reminds you so much of one person you really care about? I always thought the phrase "you take my breath away" was just and exageration. I guess it is true, becuase you do take people's breath away.

what is the definition of a sport?
are dance, cheerleading and gymnastics a sport?

More Random Writing from the iPod

ice cream doesn't fill the spaces of my empty heart
only you have that power and I know you won't ever do you part
just sit silent
neither of us have a word to say
I'm tired of this long game
my sleep anxiety is caused by you
but there's no one else I'd rather share this night with
baby it's only you

(not a personal experience just came to mind)

Fears & Feirce

I think I'm one of those people who is afraid of fear
Not that I don't have fears subconciously
But I'm afraid of being fearful
Fear is a sign of weakness
And I'm afraid of being weak

(Random thought at school in english when we were talking about fears)

Digging Deep

Today I said sorry to one of my friends for knowing me. What the hell happened to my confidence?! The worst part is my friend replied stop being so depressed you'll be fine. I absolutely hate when people say that cuz they try to act like they care but you know their really just annoyed of you complaining. I get it. I'd be annoyed of myself too and trust me I def don't want to feel the way I do. I want my confidence back and I want to sleep again and have a day where everything doesn't feel blurred. I want to be able to describe my life as one of happiness and a way to find it in myself to be happy. Its just not there. Yeah people will say it is there you just have to find it but in my case i think i have to build it starting below earth's surface.
BTW- this was a couple days ago... just been super busy and haven't had time to post :P

Hey Baby!

Had a GREAT performance at the basketball game tonight:D I feel unstopable, like no one can touch me. BAMF! School was bad again of course... what else is new? :P
Still working on a schedule change. Already behind in speech. I guess i had a paper due today that i still have to write and turn in tomorrow:( idk if that will happen for sure but we'll see. Art is terrible i tried speaking today and just felt stupid. Hopefully tomorrow will be better if my friend comes to hang with me that hour.
BTW: Song currently stuck in my head "Hey Baby"... OMG my new love other than "Bottoms Up" is still a high roller. Otherwise the past two days its just a dance party in my head of "mmmmmm baby baby da da da da mmmmmm baby baby" haha gotta love dancing!
<3